The Desire

I'm certain that you are familiar with the saying, "ask and you shall receive." On the other hand, if you don't ask, how or why should you expect to receive. Many times we don't receive things in life because we have never asked for them. We want them, we expect them but we don't ask for them. Asking is a form of faith; asking is having faith in God, that he will deliver what you ask for, as long as what you ask for will serve mankind. God wants you to ask because by your asking, you are demonstrating to God that you need his help. God is please by and appreciates your humility. Think about this for a moment, why would God gives us the ability to ask for something, anything, if he would not acknowledge our asking and help us to receive it? I ask God daily to be my guide and mentor on my journey to manifest my dreams and visions. He doesn't always provide for us what we want but He usually provides what we need. This may be a bad analogy but I'm certain that most of you are familiar with the lines from one of the Rolling Stones songs, "you can't always get what you want but if you try sometime, you'll find, you get what you need." God simply wants us to try. You can't expect to ask God for abundance and prosperity and expect Him to do all the work, while you sit on your bottom, looking forward to your dreams coming true. First, you must ask, and then you must try!

However, I'm writing here not to advice people about what they should or should not do to achieve their dreams or wishes. I just would like to share about myself and what am I going to write for this post is about my own dreams and desires.

So now, its time for me to share about my real desire....

As you can see the picture at the right side... I wish I could be like her.. and I want to be a model soooooooo bad! Being a model has become one of my dreams for a very long time. I’m twenty this year and my dream is to be a high fashion runway model. I never thought I wanted to be a model, not until I realized how jealous I felt every time I saw someone I knew or that was my age that was a model, and how every time I saw someone walking on the streets that resembled a model, I would look at them like they were someone famous. Plus, I love to watch any TV shows which related to modelling and fashion such as America's Next Top Model and Project Runaway at channel 712. The successes of supermodels like Tyra Banks and Heidi Klum inspired me a lot!~ I never go a day without thinking of my dream, but I also never go a day without thinking that maybe I won’t fit the criteria. My biggest fear is the height. My goal is to achieve at least 5’8, but there’s no chance for me to achieve that height since I have turned 20th now and my height is only 5’2!!!! But then... I'm not sure with the exact height and body measurement required for Malaysian model.. Furthermore, I'm not sure whether my body measurement fit the criteria or not...

There is no greater pain than not being with the one you love

There is so much I want to share with you,
But my words are lost within me
I have so many emotions
How do I make you see

Life is not that simple
Hear this from my heart
Our love will concur all
As we stand here at the start.

Not speaking to you is killing me
You there and me here
But one day soon that will change
And I will finally have you near.

The Angels they did send you
The day that we met
Our love will last forever
As in concrete it is set

Come fly, fly with me
Oh come fly with me
We can explore our love together
And set our emotions free

For the skies are without limits
And the tree tops we sour too
Perched upon a branch
Our love is forever true

I never meant for this to happen
But I am sure glad it did
Hearing your love and laughter
Makes me feel like a kid

Please never doubt my love
What is shared between you and me
Cause I am here to hold you
You just wait and see

But for now, I have to be patient
And except our destiny
But I promise you this my darling
You are forever within me